teen mom

..so today after all my running around & sorting out stuff I managed to squeeze in some 'teen mom' on comcast demand..& i gotta give props to those girls, yeah sometimes you wanna slap the shit outta them & scream at the TV like they going to hear ya but i do understand how much they are going through, & even though I'm not in most of their situations (uhh Amber wth?!) I can definitely agree that being a mom, esp a teen mom isn't easy at all..

I gave birth to my first child when I was 19. I did finish high sch. I met a guy, we started hanging out, one thing led to another & we had a child together. At that time, I was working, I had my own place, own car, i had a lot of freedom & a lot of responsibilities! Every wknd I was out partying all over the place, meeting new & old friends & having a blast. so when I found out I was pregnant..it was just shock & disbelief, like how did I let that happen?

I wouldn't say I was a wild child, my family knew I loved to party & have fun, but they also believed I was very responsible & getting pregnant was probably not what they thought about me doing. I was scared to let them know because I knew they would be so disappointed with me & I never wanted to disappoint anyone even if it hurt me.

With all the drama that came with being pregnant, it all changed the minute Madyson came into our lives. suddenly all was put aside & we all came together to witness the miracle of childbirth & the joy of a new family member (esp a cute lil fam member!) then somehow you realise, we always tend to sweat the small stuff & never think to enjoy the bigger better things in life. All the tears shed, heartache & anger never was worth it because it never did matter in the end.

One afternoon, we were all sitting around at home just playing with Mady, while she was entertaining us with her baby antics & we were laughing at some new trick she had learned. My Aunt then said "children bring so much joy into our lives, if Mady was not here, we would not be sitting here laughing & smiling away" she was so right! If I could picture that exact moment without Mady, we would not be laughing..probably just siting watching TV..just to think of how much she added to our lives, laughter, happiness etc..priceless, simply priceless!

Peace & Love!!